| we haven't been sleeping much. i know because he told me, and i haven't slept since two nights ago. he denied everything, but he could be lying through his teeth. what could i say? that i still thought he was making it up, that he wasn't telling me the truth? as far as i know, he'll never actually tell me 'the truth,' whatever that is. i had a hard enough time being honest with him when he brought up us again. he left without a word to me. i don't know why but he can still burn me, make me feel as small as humanly possible |
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| it's been 5 years since you died, dad |
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| there was this guy named cooper i thought i became friends with. he had shallow goals including getting rich by dirty means, vandalism, and fucking girls. i thought that was simply his superficial, outward appearance. he told me he thought i was a prospective piece of ass someday down the road when i turned him down.
i told him i thought he wasn't being real with me. he told me it's who he truly is. i told him i didn't think we would ever see eye to eye, that i still didn't think he was telling me the truth, and that we didn't have to talk anymore. i believed that until he didn't respond and he hasn't talked to me since |
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| i've forgotten your face in the rains of november i've forgotten your voice i don't want to remember |
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| oh baby i'm going to break your heart so bad |
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